harass!
POSTED AT 09:06 AM

harass tong araw na to as in! sobrang exhausting... haaayyy sana maka-quote na nang makahinga na ko.. i need a break! and a kiss from my hal.. hehe!

Behind this hazel eyes...
POSTED AT 09:15 AM

i dont really have hazel eyes but i do can relate to this song.. things been hard for me lately especially with my relationship.. good thing i have a new career! that's the only thing that makes my day bright...

Seems like just yesterday, you were a part of me
I used to stand so tall, I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight, everything it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong

Now I can't breathe, no I can't sleep
I’m barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything, opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright, for once in my life
Now all that’s left of me is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside

Cause I can’t breathe, no I can’t sleep
I’m barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me, then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you, it kills me now
No, I don’t cry on the outside anymore
Anymore

Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Questions...
POSTED AT 04:46 AM

Can you skate? No.
Have you kissed before? of course
Are you annoyed with anyone? Yes
Do u prefer being single/in a relationship? in a relationship
Do u like to eat cakes? i do.. one of my fave!
Do u like seeing yourself naked? not really.. but my bf does! haha!
Who do you miss the most? My happy self.
Who do u think is the hottest among your friends? Secret
Who do u think is the stupidest celebrity around? Paris Hilton
How do u break up with your bf/gf? i tell them straight that i wnt to get out of the relationship.. that simple ;p
Can u breakdance? Nope
What do u hate most about yourself? I think too much. and i love my bf sooo much! i hate it!
If one day u were 2 wake up naked,what would u do? flaunt it! hehe! joke! Cover myself.. of course
Do you believe in faTe or destiny? No, just God's plan
Name one song that best describes one situation u're in? BAD HABBIT... as in every line describes my present situation.
If u could be in a movie,which would it be? julianne (julia roberts) of my bestfriend's wedding
If you could be in a TV show, which would it be? Danaya OF eNCANTADIA.. hehe.. jologs!
Do u like your hair? sometimes yes most of the times no.. hehe!
What's the sweetest thing u've ever done for a loved one? love him despite of his flaws...
What would be the ideal gift for your loved one? time
What would u do if your crush confesses that he/she likes u? e di ON na kami.. hehe!
What would u do if your bf/gf is taking drugs? stop him of course..
What was the last movie u watched? cant remember na..
Have u matchmaked anyone before? Not that I can remember
Has anyone matchmaked u before? Yup, so many times!
Do u believe that aliens exist? Not sure~
What is one thing that u need to make u happy?: Im not sure yet.. i'm still trying to find out...

WHITE ROCK!!! yoooohhooo!!
POSTED AT 04:49 AM

here are some pics from white rock... tell you more next time.. quite busy... but i really had fun in this place!!

BAD HABBIT....
POSTED AT 02:06 AM

cant help but to feel for this song... this is soooo me...

BAD HABBIT - Destiny's Child

How many times
Are you gonna apologize about the same thing
And how many times can I take you back
When I'm not the one that's doin' wrong
(When I'm not the one that's doin' wrong, yeah)
I thought, maybe, if I started prayin'
Then we would get better, but
When I would pray, the answer would always come
Back to me, bein' done
But we're so hard-headed
When we're in love

So I...

[chorus]
I told myself that I would make some changes
But the more I change
There's one thing that remains the same
I can't seem to shake ya
You seem to really have a hold on me

And everytime that we break up
We turn around and make up
This can't go on now
I gotta move on now
It's not the fact that I don't love you no more
But, I gotta break this bad habit
Can't take this bad habit no more

I'm totally out of my element
Learnin' new ways to live
While you're in a comfort zone
Not even thinkin' (you couldn't think about me)
To call me, when I get mad, you buy me gifts
Thinkin' it's gonna solve every issue

From the girl callin' my phone
To the pictures that I saw
And everytime you would break up with me for nothing at all
I've taken all I can take (I've taken all I can take)
But, the way I live has gotta change, oh

[chorus]

Let me bring it down
Have you ever loved somebody
So much, that you was just too blind to see
Past all of the pain they was causin' you (causin' you)
Ladies, do you feel me (do you feel me)

Have you ever loved somebody
So much that you went against the right thing that you should do
Oh, oh then it's time to make a change (time to make a change)

[chorus]

same old.. same old!
POSTED AT 05:05 AM

nothing exciting is happening in my life right now.. i wonder why??? hmm.. maybe thats the reason why im gaining weight! grrr!! i want to wear my bikinis pa naman on our upcoming getaway! im excited about it! im thinking if im going to bring hal... hmm wag na lang kaya... hehe.. he's quite strict kase sa outfit ko baka mag away lang kami.. lately pa naman medyo may kasungitan sya.. like what he did last sunday on our family reunion.. magsungit ba in front of my cousins.. haaayyy!! pero i didnt mind him basta i enjoyed the videoke! all day long! hehe.. he does din naman, he got drunk nung medyo late na.. i was glad coz he gets to mingle with my cuz though may pagka kups lang sya minsan.. hehe.. but i love the man! kaya walang kokontra! =)
deception point - dan brownhold you down

can a man love to women AT THE SAME TIME???
POSTED AT 04:45 AM

 

just sharing TO ALL MAH BITCH OUT THERE...

He: So now you know. I'm sorry... but you see, I
also love her.
YOU: What?! How could you! What about me?
What about us? That's unfair!
HE: I still love you too.
YOU: But that's not possible! You can't keep both
of us. You have to choose between her and me.
HE: No, please don't make me choose. I can't ! I
love both of you. I have too much love for just one
woman.

Hold it! Let's cut this melodrama before this man
succeeds in convincing you that he really loves
both you and this other woman.

Okay, so he claims he has too much love for just
one woman. But wait, does the word "love" mean
the same thing to him as it means to you? For
most women, telling a man "I love you" is like
making a lifelong monogamous commitment. But
is it the same thing with your man? Is this the kind
of love that he is talking about?

According to American psychiatrist Frank Pittman,
a man who claims he has too much love for just
one woman does not really love two women, or
any
woman at all.

"HE is sexually attracted to many women and
want them to take care of him. HE defines his lust
or needy feelings as 'love'. But he is not actively
loving anyone," Pittman explains.
According to Pittman, this man only uses the
word "love" to hide his real motive--- which is sex.
It is his way of making his desire sound
respectable somehow. HE thinks women would
buy it as a valid excuse for his infidelity.

So what's wrong with him then? It's nothing
chemical, astrological, or due to an errant shot
from Cupid's bow. Above all, it is not a problem in
the relationship that he is trying to solve. Nor does
he have too much capacity for love.
Pittman explains: "He has an immature,
narcissistic fear of loving a woman. The crowded
bed is his effort to escape the engulfing comfort or
the engulfing intensity of a real, equal, and intimate
relationship with a real partner. HE feels shame
and inadequacy and fears being both fully married
and fully known."

Some men indeed fear being trapped in a marriage-
-- sharing a life with a female partner who sees
his
flaws and giving up his dream of romantic
adventures with more than one woman. These
men are like children who fear facing the realities
of life. They are not strong enough to give up their
women because they want their dreams of
romance to go on.

So let's make this clear: Is it possible for a man to
love two women at the same time and with the
same intensity???

Definetly not. The attention he gives his other
woman is the same attention he deprives you of.
The time and energy he lavishes on the other
woman are time and energy you could have gotten
instead. It's a zero-sum game. So if he decides to
love two women, the "love" he'll be giving can only
be incomplete.

And here's another point:
The fact that he tried to fool you is proof enough
that he does not really love you. For how could
one
hurt someone he truly loves??? Men and Women
have to be clear when they use such a potentially
misleading word as "love."

Remember that love is not simply an emotion but
something one does, a set of observable and
predictable actions. If a guy really means it when
he says "I Love You" it will show in the way he
acts toward you. But isn't a philanderer bothered
by his actions?? you might ask. He seems to be
enjoying his games. On the surface, maybe. But
is he really happy?

I remember a scene from a movie where the
mother told her womanizer son this: "The playboys
and playgirls of this world are the loneliest
creatures I have ever known. In spite all the love
and attention they get, they feel this certain
emptiness in their hearts, which can only be filled
by truly loving one man or woman. And they don't
know how to."

Indeed,no man can serve two masters; and no
man can truly love two women.

quarter life crisis...
POSTED AT 04:50 AM

i've once read about this thing on peyups website month's ago. and im afraid its happening to me... i'm 25, yet still im not content nor totally happy with what's going on with my life. well, who's perfectly happy anyway??? until now im still not sure what will bring me hapiness.. is it  career? lovelife? family? of course i have a career, i have a job that compensates my needs pero sometimes kulang pa rin. i love what i'm doing but sometimes things dont go my way.. kahit na magpakahirap ako to close a deal natatalo pa rin ako. its very frustrating. especially now that i havent reach my quota for the past months. i thought of applying for other job pero IT pa rin. pero nung tinanggap nman ako with a higher position and salary, nag-hesitate naman ako.. kase naisip ko rin yung mga accounts na na-penetrate ko, na bread and butter ko sa business na to. naisip ko na mas malaki ang kikitain ko sa knila kung magt-tyaga lang ako. i dont know what to do with my career now. lovelife naman... lalong frustrating.. coz i dont have any idea where were going. i understand that he's not ready for marriage at this time and so am i.. i want him to be my husband someday kaya lang andami kong nakikita sa kaniya na nakaka-dismaya.. always makes me think that pag mag-asawa na kami ganito sya>?? OMG! lalo na nung huling stay ko sa kanila last holy week.. andaming revelation! there's no doubt na mahal ko sya but if i think practically.. wala sablay tlga sya.. family???? *sigh.. yun lang.. im not a good daugther to my mom.. i know.. but everyday i always try to.. sana she knows that.. sana mas naiintindihan nya ko and sana she will stop comparing me to my cousins and makita nya naman yung difference ko with them. i was'nt always a good daughter to her but i know i'm a good person and i wish she will realize that. na yung mga pinangaral nya saken nasa isip ko pa rin and kaya ako naging good person is because of what she thought me... but still i love her.. and yun sana ang hindi nya makalimutan...

pakialamera!
POSTED AT 04:27 AM

bakit kaya andami nakikialam??!! what do you call that in leyman's term???!! EPAL???!! korak! andami nun dito! hay naku! i dont know if they're insecure or what.. bakit kaya hindi na lang nila pakialaman yung buhay nila instead of pissing me off and comment on things that i wanna do with my life??!! this is my life anyway..?? and i dont fucking need their opinions.. kase kung kailangan ko tatanungin ko naman sila... but they keep on observing my actions and react on the things i do.. haaay.. nweis i dont wanna get affected with them. just sharing para at least ma-release ko yung asar ko!

vacay is over... =(
POSTED AT 04:41 AM

and so vacation is over.... *big sigh! sobrang bitin ako! i cant get enough of this holy week vacation. kase naman most of my time were spent sleeping, eating, sleeping, eating... yun! i spent my vacation at wherelse>>!!! hal's place, syempre!!! pero sabi nya nga tinulugan ko lang sya... hehe! syempre naman di ko naman nagagawa yun pag work days noh! kaya take advantage ako.. kahit nga sya nahahawa na lang saken, hindi kase sya sanay na natutulog in the afternoon.. sometimes magigising ako nakatulog na rin pala sya.. hehe.. syempre we had our swimming din with his siblings.. sobrang saya! dami naming pics.. too bad lang di ko ma-post coz sobrang bagal ng internet... then i went home saturday.. tulog ulit then watch movie. On sunday naman we went to laguna bel-air to check yung house na gusto bilhin ni cuz.. sana nga matuloy yun para magiging taga-belair na rin ako! hehe! sosyalan.. kaya lang too far kay hal... sabi nya pag dun na daw kami magsusulatan na lang kami! haha! kase medyo malayo... so yun.. its a long busy weekend... happy naman kahit hindi natuloy plans ko.. ganun naman parati kaya ayoko na mag-plan! hmmp!

so now im back to work! and im so tinatamad.. ayoko na mag-work!! grrrr!! nagsasawa na ko as in! pero no choice eh.. kung walang work.. walang luxurious vacation na pinapangarap ko... hhhaaaayyyyy!!!

deception point - dan brownmy pulse.. hehe!

bati na kami... yiihheeee... =)
POSTED AT 04:53 AM

u heard it right... were ok.. haha! init lang tlga ulo ko last friday.. pero actually we didnt fight until saturday night na feeling ko nanadya na sya tlga. we were supposed to meet sunday kase punta kami bel-air sta. rosa to check the houses na inutos ng mom ko. pero hindi sya pwede coz inutusan naman sya ng mom nya!! eh nag-commit na ko sa mom ko.. kaya tlgang badtrip ako.. so yun we end up slammin the fone.. pero in fairness matagal-tagal din napahinga ang fone namin sa mga ganung scenario.. hehe.. then yesterday he called up.. nagso-sorry na sya.. so yun.. bati na kami.. hehe.

today is our 5th year together. tagal na... this is the date na napasagot ko sya!! haha! its a long story.. pero walang nangyaring courtship tlga.. i was the one who asked if he wants me to be his girlfriend.. and this day is the day where he said.... YES. =)

my heart beat.. haha! corny!